Last post indeed.

What Goes around comes around, it happens. At least i am still alive

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I have no one to rely anymore.
I have no one to share.
I have no one to face my problem
I am lonelier than God.

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Everyone beg to be listened
when they never be there to listen

Me
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I am happy tho
yes i am happy
kinda happy

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All the smile and laugh i made..
All the happy expression i have shown
All the excitement, positive thoughts and my attitude...

Fabricated by me
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I thought you will be my savior
but it turns that you want me to be your last savior

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You left me
Thinking you fill find another one better than me
I hope you do

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Have you ever know me
Even since we had our friendship?
Do you ever recognize my existence
You talk to me, you see me, you be here for me, you help me
But you just think i am same with the other
cause you'll do it with other
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And then suddenly you feel lonely
think you have no one in this world
i feel sorry but

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you were blind
you are blind
you will blind
I wish you aren't blind
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And i am still holding my words.
Embracing positive thought over my mind
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But i keep repeating the question whether
should i stay or move on
should i exist or disappear
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However

At the end of our time, when you feel betrayed
I feel more than you
since you caused it

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You never think a bit about me
yet you just think alot about you
you say i must catch my dream
while i am still hurt by you
you say i can be a successful man
while i can't help to worry about you

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but.......
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I don't know
in this state of emotion
i just want you to realize these;

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i want to help you
But would you mind help me too? 

i will listen to you
But would you mind listen to me too ?

i will be there for you
But would you mind  be there for me too ?
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 I CAN BRING THE END TO THIS BAD DREAMS
 

 IF YOU NOTICE THAT BOTH OF US ARE THE TWO SIDE OF WALL

SO IN THE END,  WE CAN LIVE FOREVER

THIS SONG ABOUT YOU, ME, AND OUR SOUL OF FRIENDSHIP, if you still consider it.

 
 



: )

superdilemaman

the another black days :

oke just heard and playing this song :

Nidji - Dosakah aku :

Dosakah aku mencintaimu
Mendampingimu inginkanmu

Aku manjadi diri sendiri
Tak peduli apa kata dunia
Ku nanti hari ketika
Cinta datang cinta menang

Jadi sayangku bertahanlah
Bila terkadang mulutnya kejam

Peluklah aku jangan menyerah
Mereka bukan hakim kita

Bintang yang mempertemukan kita
Cinta yang mempertahankan kita
Ooh...tuhan dengarkan doa
Dari cinta yang terlarang

Rasa yang mempersatukan kita
Cinta yang mempertahan kita
Ooh...tuhan dengarkan doa
Dari cinta yang terlarang

Cinta dan rasa bersatu di doa
Berharap cinta kita yang terlarang
Berharap cinta kita yang kan menang


well, i never waste my tears just because of hearing this sounds,
but i've found something which is implicit there 


cuma satu hal sekarang yang bisa gw lakuin :

sholat, saya bebas mengeluarkan unek unek dan mengeluarkan kaca kaca kalbu saya hehe

Afterlife : May

whoooa ;-O


long time no blogging  since i've prepared my self to get my dreams

anyway i dont really care about date, month and year again now  , Except this month:

- MAY -


I love this month, if you Asked what is the reasons .. let me explain it


Lets start on may, 3


MAY, 3.......
      may, 3 ... it must be 17 years ago since i had gone out from my mother's body, i never expected that the spoiled , and ugly boy like me cant be the first child of my family i dont know why my God, sent me to here.. taste the fresh air, feel the sunlight and see the beautiful world. i always thought i cant be a good boy, a clever boy and being the favorite i have a big huge responsible to my family, at least i must guard my brothers, and become a good example for my brothers. on general statements.. people usually called this day as BIRTHDAY,, no it wasn't .. it is MY MOM'SSTRUGGLEDAY.. she took an opportunity  and had played the russian roulette , Life or dead .. i just asked to my self, what i will doing if i were on that situation?.. i couldnt imagine it... soooo,  yes, i'm happy when i'm facing my birthday's date.. but dont forget to kiss ur mom and hug her tight , because she is your most expensive birthday's present


May, 12, 2006
when i was 13 i had my first love -- JB



and the last date was :


May, 8, 2010


Thanks God you have realized my dream,
You know i want it, and You heard my pray
You gave me one of my can't be paid off Presents,
You made my parents smile
You made my brothers proud of theirs oldest brother
You made me falling in love with You


you've been giving me an unlimited presents, but i never thought it before , breath and live
AND THANKS A LOT FOR :

i post this on june, and wishing there's another May it Mine again (^v^)v
thanks God, Alhamdulillah


Another 2010 incidents, until this day  :
1. i've had and meet my medicine for my biggest sins
2. i  got closer with my *******
3. graduated from my school
4. Become a little monster haha


 I WISH MY FRIENDS HAVE THEIR JUNE , #JUNEWISH 
haha still waiting the garuda's , and the dont - die girl :D